'I want to get married, have more babies and live on a desert island,' reveals lonely Britney Spears
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Daily Mail Reporter
Last updated at 9:49 AM on 02nd December 2008
A tearful Britney Spears vowed to get married again next year and have more children in a scene from her television documentary.
The singer, who lost custody of her sons Sean Preston and Jayden James earlier this year, said her idea of heaven is moving to a remote island with her boys and her dream man.
She also admitted she still she feels 'sad' and 'lonely' despite slowly getting her life back on track.
Britney poured out her heart in eagerly-awaited MTV documentary Britney: For The Record, which screened in the US on Sunday night.
Lonely: Britney Spears opened up about her hopes to marry again and have more children in her TV documentary Britney: For The Record
In a scene filmed as she was making her video for comeback single 'Womanizer', Britney told friends: 'I'm going to write the man of my dreams on my arm.
'I'm going to get married next year and have babies. Watch!'
She later told how when she falls in love she 'can't get enough' and 'gives my all' to her man.
The pop princess said: 'That would be heaven for me, to have my kids on an island and a man and no-one could get to us.
'That's my thing. When I really love somebody I really love somebody. I give my all.
'I can't get enough. I need to be around them all the time.
Tearful: The singer admits to still feeling 'sad' despite efforts to get her life back on track
'It's just the best feeling in the world when they give me that feeling.'
Britney teased she will eventually write a tell-all autobiography, saying: 'I will have a good book one day, a good mysterious book.'
She insisted she has no regrets - and told how she is avoiding the 'threatening situations' that have caused her such turmoil, declaring: 'I go through life like a Karate Kid.'
But the 'Toxic' singer broke down in tears as she lamented her 'lonely' life, despite apparently putting her public meltdown behind her.
She told how she feels too controlled and said: 'You can't really go there in a complete state of happiness because you're scared it's going to be taken away.
Support: Madonna, who appears in the documentary, says she feels very maternal towards Britney
'So it's better just not to feel anything at all and to have hope to feel the other way....
'When I tell people the way I feel they hear me, but they're really not listening.
'They hear what they want to hear. They don't really listen to what I'm telling them.
She started to sob as she added: 'It's bad. I'm sad.'
Britney later moaned: 'I used to be a cool chick and I feel like the paparazzi has taken my whole cool slang away from me.
'Like going out and doing stuff and like seeing a guy and hanging out.
Not cool: Britney says she no longer feels like a 'cool chick'
'The way I used to live, I was a pretty cool chick, and I'm not really that anymore.'
Britney discussed her increasingly erratic behaviour which followed her split from husband Kevin Federline, admitting: 'People started thinking I was on drugs.'
She said: 'You would think that I would have gone home, I would have taken the kids and I would have gone to Louisiana.
'I think back now and I'm like, "Why didn't I in that fragile of a state?" I'm breastfeeding one kid and the other one's with me and I have a nanny.
'Why didn't I just up and go to Louisiana?'
She said her infamous head-shaving incident was 'a little bit of rebellion or feeling free', and added: 'People thought it was me going crazy and stuff, but people shave their heads all the time.'
Britney was filmed getting a hug from Madonna before they performed together at the Queen of Pop's recent LA show.
Career change? Britney tried her hand as a make-up artist backstage before one of her performances
Madonna told the film crew: 'There is fragility about her and vulnerability about her that makes me feel maternally towards her.'
The cameras were there as Britney went clothes shopping in New York and on Halloween, when she dressed up as a witch to take sons Sean Preston and Jayden James trick or treating.
She was also seen pretending to be a make-up artist on the set of her video for her latest single 'Circus'.
The cameras followed Britney as she went out for a meal with friends and two actors from a New York show after watching them perform.
She was seen nervously getting the number of one of the hunky actors and telling how she longs to live in New York rather than LA.
During the meal, she told the actors: 'My babies' daddy lives there, so that's why I have to be there.'
She later added: 'I can't go there [New York] for too long because I go there and then it starts to hurt because I can't stay there for too long, because it's not real.'
Britney did her best to be upbeat despite her tears, insisting: "Everything is coming together right now.
'I'm ready to make this a really good phase in my life.' She added: 'I choose to be a happy person. I choose not to be a bitter person.
'If I have a bad day I get really angry with myself.'
She also maintained: 'I have no regrets because I think everything happens for a reason.
'I just have to look back and say it is what it is and learn from my mistakes and just listen to my instincts more.'
Britney denied she is a 'victim of success', saying: 'I've been placed in that category, for some reason.
'I hate that because I like to see people making the most of their situation and being positive.
'I'm a true believer in that it's all in perspective and let's be positive, and let's do that.
'And me sitting here complaining and stuff like that, I hate it.
'I hate it when people do that.'
Britney, wearing a low cut dress, was in an MTV studio to give her verdict on the documentary after it was screened.
She seemed happy enough with the final cut, simply saying: 'Good.'
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Those of you who feel the need to express such spite towards a person you don't know, and who has done you no harm, must have something missing in your lives.
I haven't experienced depression myself, but that doesn't mean that I can't feel compassion for those do suffer this horrible illness, which is no respecter of wealth or status. It took the life of my favourite singer nearly twelve years ago, and I'm just sad to see that there is still so much ignorance surrounding it.
Whether or not this lass's music floats your boat is irrelevant - she is a fellow human being, who is obviously still troubled and unhappy, and deserves compassion, not venom. I hope someday she can find peace within herself.
Ugly thoughts make for ugly people - some of you ought to remember that.
bless give her a break come here britney were look after you
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